A Resolve

Sometimes you just have an epiphany, and you may not expect it to happen, but there you are having a moment of realization. For me it was earlier today, walking back from work in the lab. It was flurrying out, very pretty, and as I listened to an old song I hadn't heard in years on my iPod, I began to think about myself and more particularly my self image. To add to it, I came back here to my room only to read Davey's article An apology to my body. I identified a lot with it, and all of a sudden, it was worded right in his article for me: I must not only recognize the struggles I have gone through with my body, but I must make peace with them and resolve to learn from them and become better for it. I have, for a long time now, just moved on from certain struggles with my self image and body image without really dealing with them. I may have defeated them, but I never looked back and truly dealt with the pain they caused me. Without doing this, I really can't grow to become somebody who can wake up most days and be okay with myself. That's my goal, and I need to make a few changes to get there. Although I'm not quite sure how to go about this, I have my goal, and that in itself is a good place to start.